i am what i am

I don’t judge someone on the basis of others perception to them. It is hard enough for me to simplify this complex world. A lot of things does occur around me and it takes quite sometime for me to comprehend them. The world does not revolve around me. So, I tend and I usually take others interest above my own, but it still my interest which matter the most. If I had given a choice to heal any scars, erase any memories, or adding any beautiful things in my life. I wont. Because it is the past that have shaped the person I am today. I have been seriously planning all the steps for the future. It is all about to make me the better me. I know that it is going to be a harsh and unsympathetic world outside. So, I need to be prepared for all those abrasive and callused things awaits for me. I tend to get carried away sometimes with all the feeling inside my heart and the thinking around my head. It is hard thou, to balance both of them. Luckily I have been blessed and surrounded with all the beautiful people in my life. My family which always in my heart till the world falls down and all my friend that will forever remain in my life. I love u guys so much. I don’t want to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. For anything to be called mistakes, it must just happen once in your life. Or else, it is not a mistakes, its what you are. I am a quite a big believer myself. I believe in God, I believe in Karma and I believe in what you called the magnificent wonderful thing in one self, Love. Unfortunately, I hardly find love. I do not know whether I am the one who running away from love or the love itself keep running away from me. Its been years from the last day I fall in love. Till now, that person voice is still lingers on me and the sweet memories of us still reside deeply in my heart. I love you so much and I always will. It is just a matter of time for me to find the right someone. For now, I have just to ponder upon the unpredictable future, stepping on the clouds of big dream and unconsciously wait for all the surprise that awaits me in front. Take what you need, Love who you want and Be who you are.